Friday, June 26, 2009

Ironing Board Cheese Sandwiches

In some cultures a man is defined by his relationship to cheese.
Sam, "Benny and Joon"

Mashing potatoes with a tennis racquet.

Ironing board toasted cheese sandwiches.

A cat who wants to be cuddled but can't bear to be touched and won't let my hand go.

I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more to be the man who walks 5000 miles to fall down at your door. "5oo Miles," Paul Loco

Michael Jackson died of a heart attack today. He was 50. I am 50.

Nathan has trained Peter rabbit to hop up onto his lap and get a treat, then hop back down to the floor and back up again for another treat.

I think that Pater is very satisfied with Nathan's progress.

I know that I am.

It is good to be alive and to be me.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

The poem is one that I originally wrote while my mom was still alive. It was for a Mother's Day talk on 17 May 1987. I was 28. Only two of my three children born: Meg, 3 1/2 and Lauren, 2, and Brent and I had been married almost 5 years.
I revised and read this version of the poem in Church for Mother's Day. My children are all grown: Meg will be 26 in October, BA in Fine Arts, married with a baby of her own; La is 24, BA in English, married and has her own on-line craft store; Nathan is 20, in college with an unofficial major in Engineering. Brent is a managing attorney for Florida Power and Light, keeping the house in one piece, our cars running smoothly and me happy.
I am 50 this year. I won't list the things that my body has been able to experience--but I am now in one piece, back to my normal weight, and free of pain. I could never have imagined being able to feel this content and excited about living my life.
And I know that my parents had a great deal to do with making that possible. Happy Mother's Day and Happy Father's Day. It is a good time to have a mother and father who love me and to be a mother who loves her children.
When my phone turns on, there is a phrase that appears on the screen: And it came to pass that we lived after the manner of happiness. (2 Nephi 5:27)

It Doesn't Matter

It Doesn't Matter

Canto I 1987

She nurtured me through cradle time, I babbled -- she replied.
She held me in her arms and rocked to soothe me when I cried.
She fed and bathed and dressed me warm; she watched me stand in fall;
And as I learned to say her name, she came when I would call.

It doesn't matter who she was -- queen or president.
What matters is my memory of the mother Heaven sent.

He held me nights when I was sick, and blessed me to be strong.
As audience, he listened to my simple, piano songs.
He led us in a family prayer both morning and at night --
And when I made mistakes, he helped me see with keener sight.

It doesn't matter who he is -- king or president.
What matters is my memory of the father Heaven sent.

She drove me to activities. She taught in Primary.
She helped me to love books and took me to the library.
She sewed my costumes for the plays she came to sit and watch.
She gave me time when she had none -- I'll never know how much.

It doesn't matter who she was -- queen or president.
What matters is my memory of the mother Heaven sent.

From carpet tubes, he made lights for a dance he chaperoned.
I learned to shun the practices that he did not condone.
He wrote me letters when I left to try a college life.
He sent me love and courage and he helped me love the light.

It doesn't matter who he is -- king or president.
What matters is my memory of the father Heaven sent.

She came to see me graduate. She sewed my wedding dress.
When Meg was born, she came to love and clean a baby's mess.
She sang with me. We played our flutes. We talked of future fears.
She brought me gifts and tender care and comforts, still, my tears.

It doesn't matter who she was -- queen or president.
What matters is my memory of the mother Heaven sent.

He offers timely, sound advice and gives a father's blessing.
And he listens calmly, when his patience I am testing.
He brags about my children and about the things I do.
He loves me lots, I hope he knows how much I love him, too.

It doesn't matter who he is -- king or president.
What matters is my memory of the father Heaven sent.

Canto II 2009

Today I think about the children Heaven sent to me --
How we read books and cared for pets and climbed up tall, tall trees.
Do they recall the walks, we took? And scriptures that we read?
And how each night I heard them talk as they were tucked in bed?

It doesn't matter who I am, queen or president.
What matters are the memories of the children Heaven sent.

When they stand before the Lord, and all their lives review --
Will I, as mother, be revealed as one who loved them true?
Will they be glad they knew me? Did they want to be near me --
Because within my eyes they saw their own divinity?

It doesn't matter who I am, queen or president.
What matters are the memories of the children Heaven sent.